Many Trussed Bridge sometimes Lacks a Supporting beam..!

 " What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise.....-Oscar wilde"
                     And he was still weeping over the things that he don't give a hoot about and the climate perfectly incarnates the soul searing stuff that running through his over sharpened grey cells .
The corner which he stood is hardly noticed by the passers go by.the bustling stream of people whose haste enhanced by the gloomy sky won't care about his fucking identity .
Yesterday's fragrances of lovemaking still dripping from his branded worn & torn leather jacket with only thing in his mind is to cross that one ended street .he might feel that he may not feel that kid's love for the rain whose clothes awaiting a downpour to clean  them. 

iGuess There are No words like "i Still LOve Yoou"....In mah Dictionary!

Safety Pause : bar Bar hum pyaar pyaar pe maar maar kyun khaatein he...
Frustrate ho kar neeli filmein dekhne kyun jaate he.....
Pyaar nahi he tujhko pandit kuch toh he beemari....!!(Somebody told me to begin every shit with some safety pause.!)

Generally life used to be a harsh and rude teacher in many ways for many people.In fact this fuckin thing never goes laminar alwaz turbulent(fuckin forgive me for using too many technical words.!)
I dont understand how the silent sea suddenly turns to devastating storm.
i guess few days are enough to realize that fucking flirting s fucks you in more than ten thousand ways ..
And the final funda is that " flirting with too many girls and fucking with too many facebook statuses indicates one's mentally turbulent state"......
people feel like a nerdy looking creature while updating ....
but he cant figure out someday this hyperactive syndrome render him to a coward, cynical dumbass.!
and so it indicates that the person can't deal with unparalleled chaotic emotions...!
                                 Nyway  time to change topic to software...Recently i came across a different trend.
Happened when some extra talented and highly qualified  . It is quite natural for the interview panel to get impressed. And one might get confused after knowing what had happened. The interviewing  panel rejected him sighting no cause. That person just cannot reconnect to the immediate past...
And the Most Respectable Panel said " You deserve this highly paid job but we are not going to  appoint you in that highly paid position." But you are required because you should be the cutoff thing for other people desiring for this position..Strange....
Fucking Strange
I'm perfectly qualified
Yet i'm not ....
"fuck yeah i was ditched" he was shouting..!
                    whateva..........
An invalid born in hills
brought up in hills
ends up working in hills
He never dares to cross hills
He can never cross hills with that safety rope around his waist....
   Well He is No  Tony Starck
He is No Bruce Wayne....
But he should survive ...
No other dream looks worth before his desire for survival...
But how can he ignore the spear in his heart held against a boulevard gate!
And when you are young you that possibilities are endless..
And when you are  young you can't figure out that possibility is to  get ditched and to get  reduced to an invalid  ..
Finally when you worry about the weakest link of the chain just break it!
And If you Dont understand these exhausted  flue emotions please don't try to read
it may result in suffocation!

'DaFuq...!!!

Let us suppose there is a guy who is ignorant of existence of Sperm whale.How awkward he may feel when somebody says " Female Sperm Whale"...Of course the above said thing is 100% irrelevant to the stuff that is to be inserted below...Nothing to relate with the things i'm gonna narrate.....!!
But Somehow i'd like to impregnate such shit into my emotions..!!!
                 It happened to me many times , I plan everything and things looks like favoring me every time but later they unfold something ridiculous , depressing , frustrating  (Some feelings better left unsaid..!!).
few years before i knew no planning .But now my planning part is pretty awesome but the execution alwaz f**ks me Along & Across...!!! 
Perhaps i need some more patience !
Somewhere in another dimension of space and time somebody met some one ,They meet so casually 
so usually
Playing together
partying together
Enjoying those chill breaking dawns together  on lonely mountains...!!!
Somehow i was landed again at Hyderabad (To be precise it is Sec'Bad.!).
After a long night on which i had become an interesting story teller..
everybody is excited about the climax that is gonna happen 
even i'm also an excited to witness that climax.....
I just got down from that f**kin train 
The sun is still hiding behind rainy cloudy Sky....
Started journeying hoping to see those sparkling black eyes smiling.....
that chilly day i'll never forget....That lovely sound of voice i wanted to feel....
is still some kilometers away...
and suddenly something strange happened.......
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Nothing more , Some feelings are better left to be unsaid...!!





Somewhere in some other world and in some other dimension Started planning again....!!!
Yep 
Planning...!!!
No need to wonder
He is same Idiot
He 'll never learn
!!!
Planning
Planning and pLanning..!!!
'Dafuq He will never make it!!!

In The Mumbai all over India we are the bhai's....

(Caution: This page is stuffed with too many grammar and spelling mistakes.If you can't afford seeing so many mistakes together i suggest people to close the tab n leave my blog n don't try to find the gender whether it is masculine or feminine because my heart has no gender and a perfect male writing this crap..!!)

Well i leave everything in the middle and start something new...

although this hasn't been new i always tell myself at the start " c'mon bravo, this time you're goin to fuck through ends..!

Anyway i continue my silly old habit of abandoning(The posts about Industrial Tour) and starting new(Post About Mumbai Tour!)

JOURNEY-A simple yet confusing synonym for life

My life is always been a confused one which has neither glamour to boast about nor grammar to post about..!!

But the only thing it had are the funny feel good frustrations.!

It has no meaning at all like my stupid writings...

I do remember someone writing " ACHIEVING HEIGHTS OF INSANITY " as her life ambition as her life term goal

Sometimes i draw inspirations from her life term goal!

Well confused Yet again...

Started this post for something and writing(Argghhhh i was not writing i was typing its just a critical case of copying from my diary..!) the other thing...

Heck

Lemme start

All that i wanted is to recollect those moments of my unforgettable Mumbai tour(To be precise it was Pune tour..!)

I might have mentioned it indirectly as " Reaching to the place where so many extroverts are being gathered in the presence of discipline loving elder extroverts"

but if i started like this i was lost in confusion forever!!

GO ON BUDDY

START(imagining someone saying these words.!)

I still remember that day

i was seriously busy in doing nothing and someone pinged me offering an opportunity to travel along with them for youth fest that is going to be held @MIT,PUNE

It was Hina Javed and Keshav Lunani whom i should thank !

still one person we need to complete 10 member crew

and i asked many people to accompany us but none turned out..!

I guess everyone had their work to do and lie to care about.

I felt like i'm the only guy who has nothing to do in the whole university...

atlast my junior Anudeep joined us as tenth person!

This was the first time i am going on journey with strangers

2 acquaintances and 8 perfect strangers(I'm one too, coz i'm alwaz a strager to myself!)

Everything went well

booked tickets in tatkal

(I wonder why life has no tatkal scheme if it had my story would've been a different one.!!)

met everyone at Rail station

waited two long hours for boarding train desperately...

The train had arrived

we all started leaving behind the miseries of semester marks ,attendance shortages etc..!

There is something remarkable with two people in the crew

one has been myself and the other one is Hina Javed

Both waiting to meet someone important in our lives...

ofcourse i don't like to say that i've failed due to poor planning

every time i cross my home district either i come with despair or go with despair...

this journey also is not an exception for the fact that i've failed..!!

I don't know why i was cursed.!

It took almost an hour to get acquainted with those people(Only boys ,the girl members are really shy a typical characteristic of konaseema girls!) on board

Anudeep an Prasanth Tirumala Raju ,i like them both

and Murthy ,the fire dancer is little shy and the other guy i dont like him!

well

i never liked the presence of faculty or elders between us...

Mr.Subramanyam who is to accompany us for the tour is not yet on board...

He was to join us at Vijayawada

I thought that the fun we were having will be having its dead line with his arrival

but a damn NO slapped me from both sides

His presence doubles

tripled

or even quadrupled the fun we had..!

One of his famous dialog is " Doola ki mandu ledu nivaranan okkate margam"

The cards we have played and the housie

i dont know why hina Javed haven't played with us

She might be busy with some other thoughts

without such person like him(Not Hina ,Subramanyam) n anudeep

The journey is never an excited one..!

I dont remember how the train sneaked its way into the rocky terrain of telangana

Whoa

I was just 20 min away from the place i've longing to reach for..!!

Hyderabad(To be precise it was Secunderabad)

Some good people friends of our crew members brought Hyderabadi dum biryani from BAWARCHI!!

i heard that 6 months are quite enough to have an opinion on a person

but in my case 6 months are enough to love a person like anything

and 6 months can become a big part of someone's life

i dont know

whether it is friendship

love

lust

or something else

but it was some thing pure

genuine

some thing i haven't experienced before..!!

Anyway Past So Fast

It Was Good

It Was Real..

Anyway things got messed up becoz of poor planning

i'd rather say i'm not involved in planning.

critics say when you got something important on your schedule you must plan ahead and should not stay away from planning

No one understands my feelings better than myself

well, i lost myself few years ago

since then i've no one to understand.!

That might be the reason for stuffing this blog with all my frustrations...

otherwise my frustration would've been turned into depression!

The train moved on

we kept playin cards

i kept starin on my mobile screen

hoping some thing could flash on that 3 in LCD screen...

I still remember those unspoken emotions in my brain(Heart typically!)

And then Train started moving out of Hyderabad(Secunderabad actually)(I dont know why i dint write Secunderabad instead of typing hyderabad even though it takes couple of seconds more..!)

And left the rail station

hoping Happy Future staring over 3 inch LCD screen!!

People who think i am an optimist must know my true colors

i was more a realist who just can't dare the unimpossibel!!!